Such a time of joy, and confusion. Just when I decide to only focus on myself and be selfish for a while to figure out my goals, dreams and passions my ex pops back into my life. I went home for the holidays, saw him and.. Told him I loved him.. Basically exploded my world. He said he’d visit me here, across the country this month.. And he wants me to be all nonchalant, lets just see how things go.. But I’m more of a planner and having everything up in the air is killing me. Are we dating other people, how serious are we about each other, if he hates it here are we done.. I need an end game!
Earlier this week I had a friend message me.. We fooled around a couple times ages ago, the last time I snuck out of his house at 5am… Needless to say I didn’t hear from him again until well, now. He can be such a sweetie sometimes seriously it’s adorable… But when we hang out it usually turns into him being a huge douche.. Like last night. After we fooled around he was like “oh I’m going to sleep on the couch, I have a weird thing about people sleeping over at my place” wtf. Soo I was like its fine I’m going to watch tv and went to the couch.. He was like uh ya you’ll probably leave in 5 minutes anyway! Ughh I dunno how I get myself into such stupid situations. I ended up falling asleep on the couch and in the morning he was like.. Um why did you sleep on the couch?
My long weekend wasn’t as successful as I’d hoped. I went for drinks with my first date then later we fooled around.. Stupid idea.
Dinner the next night was really more of a friends things…
Movies the next night was a disaster. We held hands during a movie then afterward he wanted to have sex because he thought that’s what I meant by holding his hand… Really?? Holding hands is like the ultimate cute thing to do, when does it ever mean sex??
Thennn Sunday I was back at my cuddle buddies and he brought a friend for my best friend but she ended up kissing the guy I like.. Only girl code violation.
1. Make chocolate covered strawberries
2. Paris night: get a baguette, French wine, and cheese!
3. Read Shakespeare to one another
4. Bake cookies together
5. Watch the sunrise, then make breakfast together
6. Attend a local soccer game
7. Watch an entire season of your fav TV show
8. Go for a long drive
10. Art gallery
11. Play board games
13. Visit garage sales
14. Do a volunteer activity
15. Go dancing
16. Go to the driving range
17. Build a snowman
18. Ride go-carts
19. Rent a movie
20. Have a carpet picnic
21. Go to an arcade
22. Play Frisbee
23. Go kayaking
24. Go ice skating
25. Visit the pumpkin farm
26. Go to a forest preserve
27. Go to ballet performance
28. Visit a place listed in an entertainment book
29. Bike riding
30. Volunteer at a homeless shelter
32. Haunted house
33. Out for coffee
34. Visit a flea market
35. Play bingo
36. Go to an opera
37. Swing by a bookstore
38. Visit another city
39. Go hear jazz or reggae
40. See an NBA game
41. Play in the batting cages
42. Vegas anyone?
43. Piano bar
44. Visit a psychic
45. Have lunch at a trendy new restaurant
46. Grab a fish fry
47. Grab a pint at an Irish pub
48. Chinese food and DVDs – the perfect mix
49. Attend a poetry reading
50. Attend an author reading from their latest fiction work
51. Go antiquing
52. Go out for drinks
53. Visit a winery
54. Attend a painting class
55. Visit an animal shelter – you may come home with a new pet
56. Go for a carriage ride
57. Visit the tourist spots in your hometown
58. Take a trip to the hobby store – pick out a project to work on for the afternoon
59. Take a walk – around a lake, in the moonlight, by the river, on the beach
60. Go to an ethnic festival
62. Create a scrapbook
61. Go to a shrimp boil
63. Attend a matinee
64. Visit the zoo
65. Go see a local band
66. Hockey game
67. Go camping
68. Go hiking
69. Go rock climbing
70. Play croquet
71. Attend a farmer’s market
72. Have dinner at a new place
73. Try out a new cuisine
75. Take in a community theater performance
74. Go strawberry picking or visit an apple orchard
76. Attend a live, outdoor music night in your town
77. Go see fireworks
Soo I guess I’m kinda over my ex, I’ve been going on dates… Nothing has really sparked but last weekend I hung out with a really sweet cute guy, it was a lot of fun we cuddled lots and had great make out seshs. We’d like fall asleep together wake up fool around again back to sleep… It was totally cute.
I have 3 dates this week! Well 2 for sure dates. I’m going for drinks tomorrow with another neighborhood buddy annd Saturday a cuddle sesh with a new boy 🙂
BB and I are always finding new ways to get into trouble. Sometimes I’m not sure how much I’m enjoying the new city then I have weekends like this and I know I love it here.
Friday: work late meet up with Bee get pretty then hit the bar, come home to find my roommate has people over, we drink more and wind up in bed. Me, him and Bee. It’s kinda fun he’s digging the girl on girl make outs etc. then we start getting more steamy and he tells me “oh I’m sorry, she’s reaally good.” this leads to me literally kicking him out of my bed and cuddling with Bee for the night. He’s mad and will prolly never talk to me again.. How is this my fault, do guys really not understand that girls don’t always need the whole truth, nothing but the truth? Sometimes living in a land of white lies is ok.
Sunday: met up with A and his super cute friend, flirted a little with both. A bought us drinks and we got super wasted. Then we went to the club and they tried to dry hump is, which was our cue to leave. The guys were pissed and we walked home laughing and having fun. Cuddled with Bee and woke up to a message from A that said he has a great time and wanted to do it again soon. I don’t understand how you frustrate guys like crazy and they send you cute texts??
So this guy and I were supposed to go out twice and it never happened.. And he’s back, third times a charm? He told me he totally regrets not taking me out and he’s dying to see my again.. He even said this to me…
“We’ve just arrived babe so hopefully just a week then I’ll be home 🙂 what du wanna do when I come home dinner, zoo, hockey game, anything u want all or just one your choice or we could just book into the fanciest hotel in Calgary and have the best sex you’ve ever had in your life over and over again, your choice :)”