Such a time of joy, and confusion. Just when I decide to only focus on myself and be selfish for a while to figure out my goals, dreams and passions my ex pops back into my life. I went home for the holidays, saw him and.. Told him I loved him.. Basically exploded my world. He said he’d visit me here, across the country this month.. And he wants me to be all nonchalant, lets just see how things go.. But I’m more of a planner and having everything up in the air is killing me. Are we dating other people, how serious are we about each other, if he hates it here are we done.. I need an end game!
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I did visit a friend we adventured together and had an ok time, he’s so boring lately it was kinda weird. So we were watching a movie and he tried to feel me up saying “your a girl, ima guy”
Last night I had a pretty confusing night with A. I messed up dating him because I was being a girl about my ex, so we haven’t seen each other in a while… We hung out last night, what I thought was going to be a hot hook up, far from it. The sex was unsuccessful to say the least but the night wasn’t a total waste… we cuddled and spent a bunch of time together hanging out and talking. Then he asked me to go out with him on tuesday. I have no idea what I’m getting myself into haha
I’ve tried to be way more relaxed about things, like just going with the flow and seeing what happens rather than talking about every little thing. I mostly like to clarify things because I’m a girl and I care about the people I’m spending time with, so like if it’s just a hook up for me I feel the other person has the right to know that and decide how they feel and go from there.
So my ex said I should come up next week when his parents are out of town, so I’m writing this update on the guys I’m seeing at the moment, I’m going to not go out with them and talking minimally to them for a week or so, and in 2 weeks, after I’ve seen my ex and processed that info I’m sure I’ll be in a totally different place.
Well start with A who I am still totally into and we had a few cute dates, I like him a lot but I know we wouldn’t work as a couple, he’s so different than me and he was always saying “if your still around….” so lame, making me feel expendable. We are currently not talking, he doesn’t want to be friends til I decide I want to date him. Lol.
Then theres G who is still away and I haven’t seen him in a month… He’s soo sweet and cute though, always texting me and he actually opens up and tells me his feelings, he texts me and tells me how cool and awesome I am and how much he likes me. This boy is pretty much everything I want.
Thenn there’s B who still booty calls me allll the time, I’m yet to go see him again yet.
Also L who I swore off as of 2 nights ago… But well see. Lol
M is a hottie that I’m kinda into, not much to report with him though, he’s totally cool has a wicked job and goals in life.. A dateable guy for sure, maybe another date on the way, after my boy break.
There’s J who wants to go on a date, he jokes about buying me flowers and diamonds, such a charmer. Hahahahah I tried unsuccessfully to set him up with a friend, he wasn’t into her. Boo.
And JB who I blew off the other night cause I was sick, I felt bad. He is a sweetie, but nothing is happening there.
Annnd hottie cop! Who wanted to hangout this week but I was busy. I definitely want to hangout with him BUT as nothing more than hopping in bed…
So I thought I would record some of the cute cheesy things the guys I date tell me, I’ll add more as they come/ I remember them.
So, was just thinking. And you came to mind
..I like you:)
You’re my perfect dream girl
Just thinking about your ass gets me hard
Your hair is absolutely gorgeous your hair makes me cream my jeans
I don’t mind, I am interested too.
You are cute and quite sexual too. I am a man, not made of wood so, I react to those things. You cannot flash a rack like this and expect a real man to remain idle… and the curly long hair, and the smile, come on. You make grown men cry. -Cam
So I wrote a long post updating on my weekend.. It was kind of boring so apparently it didn’t save correctly to spare you from being bored! I cancelled my date for Saturday he was so over whelming and pretty much planning our wedding, before the first date. It’s Monday night and he’s texted me like a million times, telling me I’m really missing out. Hes coming off as desperate, which is never attractive.
In other news, A wants to be friends, with benefits. No strings attached. So that’s cool well see how that goes, I kinda miss hanging out with him it’s been a while since I’ve seen him.
L texted me, my rebound booty call from a while ago. He told me he had an incredible time when we hung out and he wants to see me again. Today he text me and told me he was thinking about me, cute right. Well then we got a little steamy, talking about the night we spent together and he apologized for the size of his penis! Ugh omggg this is nuts. I actually enjoyed what we did and he had a nice penis, his lack of confidence totaaally kills it for me. I feel like maybe I can boost his confidence a bit.. Might fun to try!
G is back in the picture. I have such a weakness for this guy! Ugh! I can’t decide if I want him because I can’t have him right now, or what. But he’s definitely caught my interest. He should be moving home in a couple weeks, then we can hangout and see how it goes, I’m really excited. He’s really sweet and I know I can trust him if we decide to be together. He’s basically going to decide how my summer goes… Single super fun girl, summer fling with a hottie or maybe the start of a wicked relationship? Who knows but in the mean time I’m going to have a lot of fun…
I went out with a guy tonight, I’m totally just into being friends. Weve known each other for a while but he seems like maybe interested in more… Blah. Well see how it goes, were hanging out Wednesday after work.
Tomorrow I have two dates.. Both are new guys. Drinks with JB in the afternoon, were in college so why not? And K and I are seeing a movie later that night. First date kisses? Update tomorrow night!
So there’s a new guy who wants to take me out on Saturday, he’s smart successful, cute AND he calls me! Guys in their 20s strictly text so this is a nice change. (JE)
However there is one issue, A. We haven’t seen each other in a week, but we’ve been talking a lot still even though I think talking less would be a good idea. I kind of want to see where things go with him, or could go. But he’s already so ready to be serious and he reminds me soo much of my ex, which is definitely trouble. I’ve been thinking about my ex lately and I’m not sure if feeling like I’m back in that same situation is the reason. But maybe I’m just comparing A to my ex and finding reasons not to date him because I’m scared of getting hurt. Which is definitely a girly thing to do!
Why can’t more guys just want friends with benefits it’s a win/win. I want someone to cuddle with have amazing sex with and to just hangout with. Well after reading that back, it looks like I want a relationship. I know I’m not ready for that yet though I need to focus on myself and my goals. It’s amazing how much time is consumed by relationships. Im going to go on the date on Saturday and see how it goes, after that maybe I need a bit of a boy break. It couldn’t hurt.
These always make me laugh when I look back on them later 🙂
Who was the last person you slept in the same bed with?
Are any of your friends protective of you?
Have you made a mistake in the past week?
no regrets this week…
Will you be in a relationship in 4 months?
Probably not, no
What were you doing at 7:00 AM?
Did you ever kiss someone with a tattoo?
Yess, L he was sexy
Last time you laughed super hard? And Why?
I always laugh super hard, go big or go home!
Did anyone see you kiss the last person you kissed?
Do you have any empty alcohol bottles hidden somewhere in your room?
What was the first thing you thought this morning?
Have you ever kissed anyone who’s name started with a J, K, M, or N?
Yes, no, yes, no
Have you ever sent a text to the wrong person?
Have you ever kissed any of your brother/sister’s friends?
Who were they?
Does he/she know?
I didn’t do it geez
What time did you go to sleep last night? Why?
Do you ever think about the past?
I think that I’m happier now..
Do you have a best friend of the opposite sex you can tell everything to?
pretty much anything yeah
Have you kissed more than ten people this year?
Probably pretty close
If someone called you a bitch would you be offended?
Ever had a boy best friend?
Yes and a boyfriend who was a bestie!
Was this the best summer of your life?
I think this one will be a good one
Meet anybody new recently?
Yes lots of boys
Any up coming events you’re excited about?
Umm nothing specific
Does anyone hate you?
Who did you see last shirtless?
Have you ever gone out with anyone older than you?
A little older..
What is the last non-alcoholic beverage you had?
Do you think you will ever be married?
I think so
Is it possible to be single and happy?
Anything happen to you within the past month that has made you really angry?
Just a little angry,
Does anything hurt on your body right now?
no, I don’t think so
Who is the first person you would call if you really needed help?
Don’t cute little couples make you sick?
No, it’s fun to be in love, or lust
Has anyone ever hung up on you?
Im sure someone has
Where did you get the pants you are wearing from?
At the store
Is it cute when someone calls you baby?
I like babe,
Have you ever made out with the last boy/girl you texted?
Does it bother you when your friends bring up your past mistakes?
Depends what mistakes
What’s on your mind right now?
The single life
Has anyone ever told you you have pretty eyes?
I’ve heard it before
Which of your friends is the easiest to talk to?
I’m not sure
Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?
Deep or long? A takes the cake prolly
Are you logged into any instant messanger programs?
Do you have any dishes in your room?
It’s 10am. What are you doing?
Class, sleep, texting
When was the last time you cried:
not long ago..
Reason for the last tear shed?
Was it a boy or a girl to text you last?
do you think tomorrow will be a good day?
I think it will be alright